Damn tired…
Been sleeping 12 continuous hours today. My mom said she couldnt wake me up even. I’m like really “dead”. When i woke up, the first ting i did was looked out the window. Total darkness. Took me awhile to figure out if it’s night or dawn. Gave up, n asked my mom instead. She gave me the “are u crazy” look n tell me to go back to sleep. Ok, so it’s still night. 12.30 mn. I got up, washed my face n switched the com on.
Cant believe having a second job could be this tiring. After my 3 nights i did another 2 more nights (12 hr shifts) at changi airport. Yeah, it’s insane. Forcing my body to do 5 nights wif only 4 hrs of proper sleep. Urrghh..guess thats y i couldnt wake up today. So y am i doing this?? It’s all about the $$$. $20 an hr, who would pass out on that!! And just by doing 2 nights, i’ve already earned $480. And btw, i haf a lot more ”free time” rite now after the break-up. So might as well make myself busy. Supposed to do another night again tonight, but it’s already filled up. i guess it’s also a sign, telling me it’s time for a rest…
And since i’ve been doing night shift, i realize that i’ve not seen my dad for like 5 days. So when he sees me today, he didnt even recognize me. Maybe coz i look terrible…or maybe he even forgt that he had a daughter. HAha…
*sigh*
PS: Still having dreams n “nightmares”. Still letting out tears…..Just wonder how long more will it take.
