LoSt in Tis WorLd

It’s one of my bestfren’s birthday today. Well, Happy Birthday dear!!! Ure 22 now so please act like one.

So yesterday we surprised her wif the Night Safari trip. Wif a really bad case of night-sleep n werking morning shift, my body was basically rejecting any form of excitement coz basically, it’s shouting for REST!! But it’s my dear bestfren’s birthday so NO WAY am i gonna dissapoint her. Thank god the excitement came back when we went to pick her up. So basically frm her house, Clementi, we blindfolded her wif my jacket all the way to Mandai. Haha….she’s lucky we’re taking my car. If there’s no car n we haf to go public..how??

Reached Night Safari at nearly 7pm n our dear sya was already waiting for us there. Still blindfolded, we ‘dragged’ her to the entrance before unfolding the blind.

*Silence*

*More Silence*

For a moment, we thought she was dissapointed coz she basically didnt say anything n no expression at all. Just all smiles.

Without making the timhe jus e even more akward, we rushed to the Ulu-Ulu Restaurant. That’s when she told us that she’d just been there recently wif her bf, anuar. HAHAHA!!! So that was y she had the ‘face’. HAHA!! OK OK!! It was our fault for not checking our blindspots first. But later of the day, she confessed that she had a great time wif us n she did wan to haf a zoo trip wif us girls.

Ulu-Ulu Restaurant was damn expensive. Noting was below $10 other than the drinks. But the food tasted good. Just too expensive for us locals. Very over-priced.

Went for the animal show, which we enjoyed very much. But i feel the animals on tat night dun feel like performing i guess. Didnt get to see many actions. The only action of the whole show was when the zookeepers started walking through the crowds, frantically looking for a missing animal. Then he stopped right infront of us screaming. We screamed too!!! Keeping our legs up, close to the chest not wanting to knoe wat the hell is at our feet. Then he pointed to my feet n said “NIce Shoes!!” HAHAHA…tat was TERRIBLE ok!! After that basically the rest of the audience were basically looking at my sandals.

The tram ride was nice. The closest animal we can get to was a tapir. He was just lazily laying down at the side of the road. So cute….

Enjoyed myself tat night. Although i feel tat there’s not really much of EXCITING night animals we could see…coz mostly are deers. But it’s fun when u go wif the right crowd.

Happy birthday to u agian HID!!

PS: It feels funny. But nice….when u go back home tat late n there’s nobody calling, checking on u, n giving u hard time for having fun wif ure frens. It’s really nice…just different. Miss it a little bit…just a little bit.

Got up on the wrong side of life today yeah
Crashed the car and I’m gonna be really late
My phone doesn’t work cause it’s out of range
Looks like it’s just one of those kind of days

You can’t kick me down I’m already on the ground
No you can’t cause you couldn’t catch me anyhow
Blue skies but the sun isn’t coming out no
Today it’s like I’m under a heavy cloud

And I feel so alive
I can’t help myself, don’t you realize

I just wanna scream and lose control
Throw my hands up and let it go
Forget about everything and runaway, yeah

I just want to fall and lose myself
Laughing so hard it hurts like hell
Forget about everything and runaway, yeah

So so is how I’m doing if you’re wondering
I’m in a fight with the world but I’m winning
Stay there come closer it’s at your own risk
Yeah you know how it is life can be a bitch

But I feel so alive
I can’t help myself, don’t you realize

*chorus*

Runaway, runaway…
Runaway, runaway…
Runaway, runaway…
Runaway, run, run away…
Runaway, runaway…
Runaway, run, run away…

*chorus*

~Runaway by Avril Lavigne ~

I’m staring…

I’m reading…

I don’t believe it.

And now I’m sobbing…

I can’t stop.

The pain.

I’ts too much…

Unbearable.

Please…someone.

Make it stop.

I know too much now.

Help me please…

Someone.

Anyone…

It’s really hard to werk now a days. All because of no appreciation n respect being given to us. I’m not asking for a bouquet of flowers, chocolates n candies..just a simple thank u n a smile. We haf been werking the whole day, pushing ourselves day n night to serve u better. I believe our hardwerk deserve some acknowledgement please.

Really hard to please others. Just beacause they haf the $$ n we are in the serving line, doesnt mean that they can treat us like a servant. The funny thing is, mostly, the patients r very appreciative. It’s the relatives. No matter wat u do, they’ll haf negative feedbacks for u. The pillows r too hard, the coffee is not hot enough for my mom, the corridor is too noisy…urgh. Just stop it please!! Give us a break. I got a patient who needs blood urgently then ure hard pillow. A patient who’s going for an emergency operation is more important than ure already warm coffee. So dun tell me that i dun knoe how to do my job. We’re not handling ure family member ALONE. We haf the whole ward of patients to attend to. This is a hospital for goodness sake. Everyone needs medical attention, not just ure family member alone.

What’s even more depressing, the doctors dun seem to haf any problem wif criticisms n negative feedbacks. It’s weird, they will shout n scold us for getting the doctor too slow, eventhough we haf already called them for like 3-4 times. They will bang their fist on the counter when we say that the doctor is busy wif an emergency case n will attend to them as soon as they are available. But when the doctor arrive, it’s all smiles n countless no. of  ‘thank you’s to the doctor for attending their family member. Us??  They’d just walk past us without even turning their head around. WOW!! Now do u knoe how we feel??

Yes, nursing is really a challenge. It is a challenge becoz of those who treated us this way. It is a challenge because no one really understand the hardwerk we went through for the benefit of others. And it is a challenge because many a times, we are torn between what we truly feel inside n what we haf to potray. But one thing for sure, seeing our patients getting better n being able to walk out of the hospital upon discharge…it’s priceless. Even if they’re not as appreciative as we expect them to be, the self fulfillment we had, it’s extraordinary.

To my fellow colleges, please remember that u guys are the silent saviour of this nation. And without u risking ureselves n ure family to the hospital bugs, a mother would haf lost her child, or a diabetic man would haf gotten his right leg amputated, or old woman would haf died of an heart attack for an uncontrolled hypertension. Thank you for choosing this line, n thank you for still fighting in this battle. Ure effort is very much appreciated.