Cant wait for my AL
I’m so tired. My life now is just so boring. It’s always work, work n more work. No more homwerks, no more cca, no more galavanting. It’s just work. I use to be so active wif cca’s. I still remember to be so damn active in my Red Cross. I would join every course, every camps, every competition they haf. Till my whole school holidays were fullly occupied wif my red cross. Yeah….those were my glory days. Being the chairman and all, having to give orders n the chance of ventilate my anger at them..haha…i miss those days. Back then, it was basically just about fun. Even if u did something wrong, u dun really have to worry much. The worst, u’ll get detention. I miss being that carefree n “problem-less”
But now when ure werking, u gt bills, chores, responsibilities, ambitions…..EVERYTHING!! The longer u r living, the more things u wan in this world. U are never satisfied with wat u haf. U just wan wat others haf, even when u cant handle wif the things u already haf. We are just nver satisfied n thankful enuf. And so in the end, we ended up taking more than what we are giving.
It made me think, if i were to die tomorrow, will i be satisfied wif my life. Will i be a great loss to them?? Will they miss me? Or will i just be burried silently underground while the rest continue with their own race of living. Once i told him, if i were to go before him, i would like him to visit me every month on the 24th n place a white rose each time he leaves. Just to remind me that i’m not forgotten. He smiled, kissed me on the forehead and said ok. I dont know if he really mean it but that answer satisfy me for now. Just for now….
Another day, Another conversation
Me: Do u know that lots of my frens envy our relationship?
Him: Y??
Me: Coz i guess we seems happy wif each other. My fren even thought ure my husband.
Coz she say we look so perfect wif each other.
Him: haha…soon they going to say “let me knoe when u break up”.
Me: They already did..
Him: SEE!! So u better appreciate me coz i got LONG WAITING LIST.
……some ppl are just full of themselves. TOINK!!
