LoSt in Tis WorLd

I made a mistake yesterdae at werk. It’s not a life threatening one or wat. Nor is it a MAJOR mistake. But it’s a mistake. I had to label quite a few blood investigations forms n somehow, i wrote the wrong bed no. on the wrong form. All my labelling n pt’s sticky label were correct, just that it was the wrong bed no. So todae, when i gt back to the ward, when they were passing report, they said someone made a wrong labeling n so the blood wasnt taken this morning. I didnt expect it was me who made that mistake!!! How could i!!! I’ve only been there for like a few weeks n I’m already making such mistakes..?? Damn it.

So the ward Sister approached me this afternoon regarding that silly mistake…n although she didnt really scold or shout at me (she just merely talked to me to let me knoe), I felt scared actually. I could feel my heart beating faster n faster n my palms were gng all sweaty. I dunno y but I just felt scared. It wasnt a serious mistake but it woke me up. Wat if i make that kind of mistake when i was serving medications. What if i gave the wrong injections to the pt. What if i killed my patient just because i make a mistake. DAmn it!!!

I’m aware that i’m not a very “focus” person. My mind can just wander when i’m in the middle of doing things. Blame it on my short-attention-span. BUt after todae, i think i better start “focusing” n be more alert. Coz if not, i’m gng to end up in a hot soup….

I’m officially a staff nurse now. That means, no more “I’m not so sure, u might wan to check wif my staff nurse” or “Staff nurse, can u teach me how to use this” or “My staff nurse will be right over to help u out”. Coz the sickening thing is, I AM THE STAFF NURSE!! The next batch of students r probably gonna use those lines on me….*sigh*

Take a look at the new batch of nurses….

Let’s see…4 wks foundation programme….3 months probation….3 years bond….*sigh*. I hate werking life. I’m already missing my schooling days. My Mac canteen, my lecture hall, my tutorial room. I need some MOTIVATION guys!!! I dun knoe how the hell i’m gng to be nurse for 3 years….coz juz after 3 weeks, i’ve been having headaches. UURRGHHH!!!

Anyway, let me just share wif u wat haf been happening lately. I’m posted to the REspiratory ward in SGh, so that’s where all the respiratory cases like asthma, pneumonia, trachea complications, etc ends up into. So basically i’m dealing wif cases that haf anyting to do wif respiratory problem. The unlucky thing is, they put me in the paying class ward. That’s where all the A n B1 patients are lodge. I hate werking wif these ppl, coz some of them can be very demanding, fussy, complicating. They knoe that they r paying every single cent of the hospital bill so they make full good use of us, nurses. Sometimes, i even feel like as if i’m their maid rather than a healthcare worker. The worst case for us to handle is those who loves to challenge us. I ever encounter pt’s family member asking me 101 qn just because i need to take the pt’s blood sugar level. She even commented n said wat i did was wrong n it should be done another way. When i ask her how does she knoe it’s done that way, she say she read it up online. FOR goodness sake!!! If u think that u can do a better job just by reading up from online, by all means go ahead!! I’ve been trained for 3 years under NYP n u are saying that my method of checking blood sugar level is wrong n ures is right….just by merely reading from an online article??!!! The F*%@ word was just at the tip of my mouth. It’s a good thing that i’m still under probation, coz if not, i would haf told that lady off.

Not forgetting the fussy ones too. Time has really change the kind of patients we use to haf. So far, most of the pt i haf treat the hospital like their home. By the 8pm, milo must be serve before they go to sleep, bedsheet must be change every single day, if they say they wan to bathe now, u must bathe them NOW!!! UurrGGhh!!! I’m not just taking care of 1 pt u knoe. I got 24 pt to attend to. If i’m handling n emergency case, do u still expect me to entertain u?? FREAKS!!!

Patients r not our only problem. I find that the public also has made us feel so restricted n pressurized. Can u believe it, someone actually wrote a complain about nurses eating ice cream outside. WAT THE HELL WIF U GUYS??!!! U never see ppl licking ice cream before issit?? We cant even listen to mp3 when we r in uniform. That’s just too much, so i didnt really comply to it. I wonder wats next…public complaining abt nurses holding hands wif their husband issit??

*sigh*…..all we can do is, now n then, tell each other that we r taking up jobs that not many ppl r fitted for. N that we should be proud for being brave enuf to expose ourselves to dangerous diseases just to give them a better daily living.

Proud to be a nurse….