LoSt in Tis WorLd

When i was on my way for break yesterday, a young (quite good looking) man came up to me…here’s our conversation n pls spot the mistakes.

Man: Excuse me nurse, I cant find my car….(stares hopefully into my eyes)

Me: ok…so how do u wan me to help u?

Man: I dun knoe..i really cant find my car.

Me: Where do u park it?

Man: Carpark.

Me: I mean, wats the nearest blk??

Man: It’s the big big carpark.

Me: We gt lots of carpark here. There’s one just behind u. At least try to remember the nearest blk.(getting a bit impatient)

Man: i think it’s blk 6 ah.

Me: (showed him how to get to blk 6)

Mistake 1: If u wan to ask for help, pls ask INTELLIGENTLY!! Just by saying u cant find ure car n giving me tat sad puppy face isnt gng to win u any sympathy frm me.

Mistake 2: When u answer a qn, pls answer it INTELLIGENTLY also. yes i knoe u parked ure car in a carpark, u dun haf to tell me tat. i need other details to help to find ure “missing” car.

Mistake 3: pls be specific. Ure “big big carpark” may be my “small small carpark” so again, be INTELLIGENT, i need more details.

When u get panic, u kinda get stupid too. Tats wat i learned yesterday. So never ever get panic!! He was lucky that i find him kinda cute. If not, i would haf just instruct him to the ambulance or the dumpster carpark.

found this in you tube. haha..so funny. how i wish my cat could do tat.

Like i said…the feeling will come back up again. This time it’s not just her, it’s the other her too. Just why cant i ignore them n just be happy wif the ppl i haf around me. seriously…


As long as i knoe that i haf a reason for every choice tat i make, y must i feel guilty.? It’s he the one who makes us enemy. I hate myself. i hate myself for being so understanding, to always thinks abt others, and to always try to understand others until i feel guilty n forget abt wat they actually did to me.


Eventhough i sense a feeling of hatred towards them, i still hope n wish that things will just heal up n it will be just like before. I’m not afraid to say tat i’m just waiting for the “day” to come. And when tat “day” comes, i’d be standing on top of the world n shout “I TOLD U SO!!” rite at ure face. Yah i knoe, it sounds evil. but tats exactly wat i feel. just waiting now…..


And ppl, if u wan to get some attention, just speak with an american accent n say that u grew up in U.S. u’ll get all the attention u wan….

Lets see…4 days of dissappearance. haha…miss me?? hmm…read on if u wan to knoe abt my MIA.

19 May 06, Friday
Last day in IMH. Just like i said before, we were wng to turn the place into a Disco, n we DID!! They danced like mad. Some of them even look like as if they went to pub before ah….haha. Should really see the way they shake. Maybe they think that they’re auditioning for shakira’s concert. Halfway throughout the day, i felt chills on my body. Feeling abit muscle pain also. ok, first sign of me gng to haf a fever.
Then at nite, since it was the last day, the whole lot of us slack in the nurses counter wif an enrolled nurse. She was telling us abt the history of this one lady who’s our patient. just earlier on, she create some drama in the room. She managed to untie herself from the bed n it took 5 of us to drag her back into bed. she may look old, but her strength is much more greater as compared to ours. So the EN was telling us that the lady has been staying there since she ws 17 yrs old. AND NOW SHE IS ARND 60++!! She got ever dig another sleeping patient’s eyeball out, so tats y since then, at nite time, they always tie her into bed. This old lady is really psycho man….
Took my temperature again on the way home: 38.6*C


20 May 06, Saturday
Woke up in the morning wif really really really swollen eyes. Scared the guts off my father who’s washing the dishes in the kitchen at tat time. After bathing, went straight to see the doctor, but bloody hell, suddenly sooooo many ppl haf to fall sick on a sat. By the time my turn came, i feel so exhausted that i just wan to fly home. Doctor says it’s conjunctivitis n hives. I think it’s just hives….a really bad one. Reached home, slept on the couch without eating my medication, was too tired. Then arnd noon, woke up for awhile, forced myself to the kitchen to eat my medications n went back to sleep. Arnd 3pm, susu called, talk to her for 5 mins, then went back to sleep. Woke at 6pm, took a 10 min shower, called my sayang n talk for 5 min, then went to sleep. Basically, i spent the whole day sleeping in my living room couch lah.

21 May 06, Sunday
Eyes still swollen. Fever has gone down. Cough is geting worst. Still couldnt eat anything coz everything taste like medicine. And i realize sumting, the medication makes me drool alot. So every 5 min i had to go to the toilet n spit tat extra mls of saliva. By 7pm at nite, i stopped taking any medication, coz i wan to get rid of the medicine taste. So i didnt even finish my antibiotic…which is wrong k ppl. do not, i repeat, DO NOT TRY THIS AT HOME!! Tomorrow i’m gng to SGH. so fast the weekend fly….

22 May 06, monday
Half of the day, we had our orientation of the ward. Susu says it’s gng to be fun attached to tat ward. I just wish the time will fly faster….am still recovering from the cough n swollen eyes. Haf not touch a single food since last 2 days so this morning, i felt very faint-y. After werk, went to meet susu n we went to eat dinner at boon keng KFC. Time flies really fast..n we we still haf lots of things to talk abt. We walked home for abt 3-4 bus stop before we decided to take the bus for the rest of the journey coz there were lightning.


23 May 06, Tuesday
It’s back to the boring shifts n work. haf fully recovered from my sickness.

WeeeEEe!!


Todae is my last day in IMH. Gonna miss all the patients lah. They all so cute. And working in IMH is much more relax then werking in SGH. How i wish i’m bonded in IMH rather than SGH. Todae we’re gng to haf a party wif the patients later. Going to turn the place into a disco. keke..


I realize something. There’s no point of me get so hung up over that the bitch. There’s no point of me getting worried n frustrated. Cos the thing is, i’ve already got him by my side. no point for me trying to fight the battle, coz i’ve already won. And in the first place, there’s no battle at all. I’ve automatically won by having him standing loyally beside me. So wats the fuss abt?? i also dun knoe. Just wan to get the feeling away. Maybe some of u will understand how i feel, coz maybe some of u haf gone through what i’m gng through. They say time will heal the pain, but why is it i’m feeling the other way?? the more i kept quiet, the greater the feeling is. Time is killing me actually. It’s torturing me. Yes, i admit it. She’s driving me nuts. Although i said before that she does not bother me a single bit at all, but the truth it, it’s turning my inside upside down. It’s bothering me so much, that even if i’m having fun, i could just cry. yah, i might not show it, but if only u guys could do an x-ray on my emotions, maybe u guys will believe every single word i say. Anyway, earlier on i said tat there’s nothing for me to be upset about, so let’s not get carried away. I should remain this positive n kept on repeating it to myself whenever i feel like the feeling is coming back up again.


This is so hard,…


Before i forget ppl, the remaining bbq photos are up already. Can go n check it at my photo collecton k!!

Alas, my craving for BBQ food has ended. Had Bbq wif our ex MacD crew at downtown east yesterday. It was quite fun ah, but will be more fun if more ppl that we know turn up. Followed Ais to collect our satay n otah at kembangan then we took the cab down to Downtown. At first it was kinda quiet lah, coz there’s only the 4 of us, Aisyah, me, nora n her fren Yasmin. Then susu n sangee arrived n that’s when the fun begin. Of coz with sangee around, the place will turn upside down. Just with her laughter, she can make the room sound like as if there’s 20 ppl.

Once it stopped raining n the sky was clear, we set up the fire. Took us for awhile to get the fire gng, n our Aiser was in the bad mood already coz the fire was like going on strike. But in the end we still manage to bbq. Our nora n her fren yasmin were busy testing the food, so for awhile, every piece of food we place into the tray, it disappeared within 5 seconds. haha…OUh yah, wan to knoe wats on the menu?? There were chicken wings, otah, satay, hotdogs, marshmallow, fishballs, squids on skewers n crabsticks. Really alot of food. By the time we finish cooking all the food, it really looked like a mountain. Something was really odd abt me yesterday. i couldnt stuff myself with lots of food. after 2 piece of chicken n a few crabsticks n hotdogs, i couldnt eat anything else anymore. haha..so wasted ah. For the whole day i’ve avoided any kind of food, but still i couldnt stuff myself tat night. soooo damn wasted.

Later in the evening, a couple of others came down. Aisyah’s fren, Salmah, n her bf. Nora’s sister n her bf. And lastly….our precious SYA SYA!! miss her so much. so long never see her. haha..so glad that she could make it down. Thats when the fun really begin, we took loads n loads of crazy pictures. we couldnt stop laughing n i guess those ppl bbq-ing outside was like peeping into the house to see wats the racket all about. Most pictures are with susu so i couldnt post any of those now. still waiting for her to pass it to me, which will be somewhere next week. Anyway here are some of the pictures i haf wif me, the rest u haf to wait until next week. ok??!!

Desperately trying to burn some charcoal.

Me n susu acting all like japanese-cuties….

Susu n sangee posing wif the chef of the day. Wats wif the t-shirt chef??

I love this picture. very starry..haha